I had an internal dispute with a friend because it turns out we like the same guy. I said it's fine by me, but its obviously not. I've had my fair share of heartbreaks and I'm thinking that I deserve this this time around. But someone sharing it with me... Woah. Would you like to share kidneys as well? Oh, that's way over the belt. Plus this thinking has got to go. The whole crush thing isn't worth the friendship. And she stated that she wasn't really serious about it (and what, I am?) and I said she could have him. I said this while sitting on his chair. I was clearly dying inside. But as I said we're fourth years. We're freaking mature, fer cryin out lou'! 

I do admit I was robbed of my strength after the shocking revelation and maybe ranted a little bit about it but I'll keep it at that. As I'm not comfortable with the whole I-like-him-too aspect, I'm just going to avoid the subject. Or maybe I can try my hand on avoiding the ROOT of subject too. It'd drive me crazy, but it's fine if it'd help me forget about the drama. And anyway, there's my faith. My heart and mind believes that if this is really meant to be, graces would come to me and I shouldn't have to chase it. If it's meant for me, it will be mine. I don't have the right to claim anything or anyone that isn't mine. That's logical enough for me.

And it's totally unfair to my friend. She doesn't have any fault on this; after all, she liked him first. My feelings just grew out of proportion and one day it all became different. I'm still thankful that I'm experiencing all this confusion and gut wrenching indignation and disappointment. Because without this, I wouldn't have fallen apart. If I hadn't, I wouldn't have had this emotionally touching dinner with my best friend. I just love her. She supports me in everything. After all it's all her fault it became like this. So blame her. 

Hahaha. I decided I'm just going to go on living, being a good friend to my friend who also likes my crush, and... be the same as well to my crush. I'm just going to be a helpful classmate to him. Nothing will change and we'd all graduate. It will be as if nothing happened. I'm getting good at all of this sacrifice thing. My friend can have him because I'm such a nice person. LOL. Anyway, I still have my best friend so no loss there. But I'm not saying I give up on him. There might still be some hope. Ah... what an epic day. 

And oh yeah, oh yeah. Congratulations to our best debater, ACE VER VARGAS! He owned the stage awhile ago and was skillful enough to bag 3rd place. Party party. And guess what, I also got over him already. As in I felt nothing. Which is a cause for celebration. Finally. Success!

Oist... May share ako mga ka-dudays. Feeling ko... crushkosikuyakimpoyfelicianongtumblr. Did you catch that? Haha. Recently lang to. Natagpuan ko sya sa Tumblr. Crush din kasi sya nung fino-follow ko. Crushable din naman si Kuya dahil na sakanya lahat ng katangian ng ideal ko.   So, that make him my ideal na? I don't know. Everytime kasi na makita ko yung face nya sa Tumblr at mabasa ko yung posts nya, parang nahuhulog ako sa kawalan at BOOM! nalulungkot nalang ako bigla. Parang sobrang gusto ko sya makausap at gusto ko syang makilala pero hindi pwede kasi he's way back in New Zealand.

Hindi lang kasi 'yon yung masaklap. Taken na sya mga ka-nerds. TAKEN. Why are all the good ones taken? Sana naman, I can be one of the few who can take the best ones out of the market. I actually dream of snagging one priceless dude. Pero I obviously have no hold on my future (maybe except how my life will go) and I have no idea who I'm going to fall for (and fall for me in return) in the near future. Although I do hope it will be in the NEAR future. Haha. But probably not cause I'm planning on taking medicine, eh that takes quite a long time to accomplish. 

And let's not forget my mom's no boyfriend rule. Pre-med palang, loser na ko kasi 4 years yun. Malala pa, if ever hindi ako matuloy sa Medtech, Pharmacy ang laglag ko. That's 5 years in the making pre. Hanep. Add mo pa yung another 4 years for the Medicine Proper. Only then can I graduate from school. That's not all. I still have Residency. But as my mom reasons, I'm already working then. 

So sure. OO nga. I like Kuya Kimpoy. He's just so awesome. So allow me the privilege to bitch about not being able to talk to him here. Anyway, I'm too hiya to work up the courage to leave something on his ask box. Ang loser ko pa nga sa Tumblr eh. I've been there half a year and 53 palang ang followers ko. While others, they don't even exert much effort. Not that I'm hankering after followers. It's just that, it feels good to know that people actually value and like your posts. It's not about the money money money. It's not about the fame. It's about the worth. K.

I don't have anything more to say. I'm done. (But not on crushing over Kuya Kimpoy.) If you're wondering why I'm so hang up over him, just check for yourself. Follow him on Tumblr! But if you don't want to fall in crush like me, just plain DON'T LOOK on his face. It's dreamy. K. Enough. I sound like a stalker. HEY! I'm not. And not only is he adorable, he's also down to earth and respectful. He's a sport (God, imagine, people are asking him if he's still a virgin. WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE.   You don't go asking people personal stuff like that.) and he always accommodates his followers. And his posts make sense and sometimes humorous. 

But then again, we go back to the fact that somebody owns his heart and he's probably in love with her too. Yeah, happy trip guys. Hope I can find someone who's willing to take the trip with me too. *sigh*

Kuya Kimpoy's Tumblr page: http://kimpoyfeliciano.tumblr.com

P.S. And if you can follow me too, only if you want. I'm not forcing.

I had an internal dispute with a friend because it turns out we like the same guy. I said it's fine by me, but its obviously not. I've had my fair share of heartbreaks and I'm thinking that I deserve this this time around. But someone sharing it with me... Woah. Would you like to share kidneys as well? Oh, that's way over the belt. Plus this thinking has got to go. The whole crush thing isn't worth the friendship. And she stated that she wasn't really serious about it (and what, I am?) and I said she could have him. I said this while sitting on his chair. I was clearly dying inside. But as I said we're fourth years. We're freaking mature, fer cryin out lou'! 

I do admit I was robbed of my strength after the shocking revelation and maybe ranted a little bit about it but I'll keep it at that. As I'm not comfortable with the whole I-like-him-too aspect, I'm just going to avoid the subject. Or maybe I can try my hand on avoiding the ROOT of subject too. It'd drive me crazy, but it's fine if it'd help me forget about the drama. And anyway, there's my faith. My heart and mind believes that if this is really meant to be, graces would come to me and I shouldn't have to chase it. If it's meant for me, it will be mine. I don't have the right to claim anything or anyone that isn't mine. That's logical enough for me.

And it's totally unfair to my friend. She doesn't have any fault on this; after all, she liked him first. My feelings just grew out of proportion and one day it all became different. I'm still thankful that I'm experiencing all this confusion and gut wrenching indignation and disappointment. Because without this, I wouldn't have fallen apart. If I hadn't, I wouldn't have had this emotionally touching dinner with my best friend. I just love her. She supports me in everything. After all it's all her fault it became like this. So blame her. 

Hahaha. I decided I'm just going to go on living, being a good friend to my friend who also likes my crush, and... be the same as well to my crush. I'm just going to be a helpful classmate to him. Nothing will change and we'd all graduate. It will be as if nothing happened. I'm getting good at all of this sacrifice thing. My friend can have him because I'm such a nice person. LOL. Anyway, I still have my best friend so no loss there. But I'm not saying I give up on him. There might still be some hope. Ah... what an epic day. 

And oh yeah, oh yeah. Congratulations to our best debater, ACE VER VARGAS! He owned the stage awhile ago and was skillful enough to bag 3rd place. Party party. And guess what, I also got over him already. As in I felt nothing. Which is a cause for celebration. Finally. Success!

Oist... May share ako mga ka-dudays. Feeling ko... crushkosikuyakimpoyfelicianongtumblr. Did you catch that? Haha. Recently lang to. Natagpuan ko sya sa Tumblr. Crush din kasi sya nung fino-follow ko. Crushable din naman si Kuya dahil na sakanya lahat ng katangian ng ideal ko.   So, that make him my ideal na? I don't know. Everytime kasi na makita ko yung face nya sa Tumblr at mabasa ko yung posts nya, parang nahuhulog ako sa kawalan at BOOM! nalulungkot nalang ako bigla. Parang sobrang gusto ko sya makausap at gusto ko syang makilala pero hindi pwede kasi he's way back in New Zealand.

Hindi lang kasi 'yon yung masaklap. Taken na sya mga ka-nerds. TAKEN. Why are all the good ones taken? Sana naman, I can be one of the few who can take the best ones out of the market. I actually dream of snagging one priceless dude. Pero I obviously have no hold on my future (maybe except how my life will go) and I have no idea who I'm going to fall for (and fall for me in return) in the near future. Although I do hope it will be in the NEAR future. Haha. But probably not cause I'm planning on taking medicine, eh that takes quite a long time to accomplish. 

And let's not forget my mom's no boyfriend rule. Pre-med palang, loser na ko kasi 4 years yun. Malala pa, if ever hindi ako matuloy sa Medtech, Pharmacy ang laglag ko. That's 5 years in the making pre. Hanep. Add mo pa yung another 4 years for the Medicine Proper. Only then can I graduate from school. That's not all. I still have Residency. But as my mom reasons, I'm already working then. 

So sure. OO nga. I like Kuya Kimpoy. He's just so awesome. So allow me the privilege to bitch about not being able to talk to him here. Anyway, I'm too hiya to work up the courage to leave something on his ask box. Ang loser ko pa nga sa Tumblr eh. I've been there half a year and 53 palang ang followers ko. While others, they don't even exert much effort. Not that I'm hankering after followers. It's just that, it feels good to know that people actually value and like your posts. It's not about the money money money. It's not about the fame. It's about the worth. K.

I don't have anything more to say. I'm done. (But not on crushing over Kuya Kimpoy.) If you're wondering why I'm so hang up over him, just check for yourself. Follow him on Tumblr! But if you don't want to fall in crush like me, just plain DON'T LOOK on his face. It's dreamy. K. Enough. I sound like a stalker. HEY! I'm not. And not only is he adorable, he's also down to earth and respectful. He's a sport (God, imagine, people are asking him if he's still a virgin. WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE.   You don't go asking people personal stuff like that.) and he always accommodates his followers. And his posts make sense and sometimes humorous. 

But then again, we go back to the fact that somebody owns his heart and he's probably in love with her too. Yeah, happy trip guys. Hope I can find someone who's willing to take the trip with me too. *sigh*

Kuya Kimpoy's Tumblr page: http://kimpoyfeliciano.tumblr.com

P.S. And if you can follow me too, only if you want. I'm not forcing.