Teenage Dream
Tuesday, October 5, 20109:48 PM
Oh my goodness. I miss this place. I haven't written for like, two months already? Is it that long or am I exaggerating here? But either way, I'm really grateful I get to be here again, typing up some weird nonsense blab about my life. You wouldn't know how hard it has been for me these past few weeks. Imagine dying but not literally dying. You're physically alive but emotionally and soulfully dead. Anyway, let's just leave that all behind. What's important right now is I was able to pull through and I'm back to earth again, though a little less sane than before. I guess we should consider every obstacle as a learning tool; a little me time to know things about yourself, only in a hard way, but learn something regardless.
As they say, we get to see the reality amidst the false perceptions we choose to fit in our minds, maybe because these fallacies in life are easier to digest than the thought that you're an infinite loser and nobody wants you anywhere. We get to have a really brutal wake-up call and it's the impact that burst your bubble. It's actually the main point it's trying to insinuate. Maybe, there's just those little irksome laps in our lives when everything is just really bad trip and things won't go the way you plan it to. A rather macabre way of telling us that we don't always get what we want. Questions come here and those icky little questions marks are what you're trying to avoid. Trust me, it doesn't come easy. Of course, besides curiosity, in times when nothing really makes sense to you and you can't stand the thrill anymore, (as if) your natural tendency is to seek for answers.
That's what we do. But what if answers aren't always there to shed some light to our otherwise dark and grimy minds? If we use logic, problems always have answers. But I guess that logic forgot to mention a little exception. What about less than shallow problems that we just can't seem to find the answer to? As in, no guides, no experts, not one who understands. Plain mystery. It might be a bit difficult to accept when you're in the situation itself but the thing is, the answers is actually within you. Nobody can answer your questions about yourself better than you. You might claim that you know nothing, but you actually know a lot. You're the boss in charge of your brain. You're the one thinking, feeling, and comprehending. Of course you know what you need.
Whether may it be a "move on" solution or a "strive harder" one, it all depends on you. Though it wouldn't hurt to have a little moral help from the one you believe the most to. I think you already know who to call (And no, it's not the GhostBusters okay?) during dire circumstances. But I wouldn't advise you to all out hang on to that for it would still bring you nowhere if you're all believing but no doing. Remember, your happiness belong to you and only you can make your own happiness. It's like what you sow is what you reap. (Wait, am I right there? *Puzzled*) You should also do some direct action; God isn't going to leap out of heaven and do your tasks for you. Although, the upside there is, you will receive relevant and useful guidance and enlightenment. And of course, a lot of angst. ^.-
I caught myself there. Here I am again, expanding on nonsense things. But I guess it really helps me a lot, not only on the stress removal thingy but to be able to share my views and type and think about it at the same time? It's like having a lecture learning with myself. It's like I'm typing this up and I keep interrupting myself with "What the... Oh yeah!" and a "Yes. Quite true." every two or three words per minute. My purpose here? I just wanted to share some of the things I'm learning along the way. It might be quite different from you guys, for honestly, each individual goes through different life processes and we have various life learning methods in store for us but in conclusion, it all ends up in this:
As they say, we get to see the reality amidst the false perceptions we choose to fit in our minds, maybe because these fallacies in life are easier to digest than the thought that you're an infinite loser and nobody wants you anywhere. We get to have a really brutal wake-up call and it's the impact that burst your bubble. It's actually the main point it's trying to insinuate. Maybe, there's just those little irksome laps in our lives when everything is just really bad trip and things won't go the way you plan it to. A rather macabre way of telling us that we don't always get what we want. Questions come here and those icky little questions marks are what you're trying to avoid. Trust me, it doesn't come easy. Of course, besides curiosity, in times when nothing really makes sense to you and you can't stand the thrill anymore, (as if) your natural tendency is to seek for answers.
That's what we do. But what if answers aren't always there to shed some light to our otherwise dark and grimy minds? If we use logic, problems always have answers. But I guess that logic forgot to mention a little exception. What about less than shallow problems that we just can't seem to find the answer to? As in, no guides, no experts, not one who understands. Plain mystery. It might be a bit difficult to accept when you're in the situation itself but the thing is, the answers is actually within you. Nobody can answer your questions about yourself better than you. You might claim that you know nothing, but you actually know a lot. You're the boss in charge of your brain. You're the one thinking, feeling, and comprehending. Of course you know what you need.
Whether may it be a "move on" solution or a "strive harder" one, it all depends on you. Though it wouldn't hurt to have a little moral help from the one you believe the most to. I think you already know who to call (And no, it's not the GhostBusters okay?) during dire circumstances. But I wouldn't advise you to all out hang on to that for it would still bring you nowhere if you're all believing but no doing. Remember, your happiness belong to you and only you can make your own happiness. It's like what you sow is what you reap. (Wait, am I right there? *Puzzled*) You should also do some direct action; God isn't going to leap out of heaven and do your tasks for you. Although, the upside there is, you will receive relevant and useful guidance and enlightenment. And of course, a lot of angst. ^.-
I caught myself there. Here I am again, expanding on nonsense things. But I guess it really helps me a lot, not only on the stress removal thingy but to be able to share my views and type and think about it at the same time? It's like having a lecture learning with myself. It's like I'm typing this up and I keep interrupting myself with "What the... Oh yeah!" and a "Yes. Quite true." every two or three words per minute. My purpose here? I just wanted to share some of the things I'm learning along the way. It might be quite different from you guys, for honestly, each individual goes through different life processes and we have various life learning methods in store for us but in conclusion, it all ends up in this:
We live because we learn.
We love because it's the best thing we can do.
We go through pains because it makes us stronger.
We have failures because it helps us become winners.
We laugh because we are humans, capable of emotions.
In the end, it's not the glitter and the glamour that's going to matter.
It's how we lived as persons, loved others, and reveled in the most simple of joys.
We have much to be thankful for.
And at the end of the day, everybody deserves a quiet sunset.
To know that after a hard day's work, we have someone to whom we could rest and run into.
Someone we regard as HOME.
Learn from me,
BLESSIE xxx
We love because it's the best thing we can do.
We go through pains because it makes us stronger.
We have failures because it helps us become winners.
We laugh because we are humans, capable of emotions.
In the end, it's not the glitter and the glamour that's going to matter.
It's how we lived as persons, loved others, and reveled in the most simple of joys.
We have much to be thankful for.
And at the end of the day, everybody deserves a quiet sunset.
To know that after a hard day's work, we have someone to whom we could rest and run into.
Someone we regard as HOME.
Learn from me,
BLESSIE xxx
