I have felt genuine happiness and I'm truly gratefully to God for that. All things end and in the end, no matter how painful it may be, we have to say goodbye to good times, and accept that they will forever just be another part of our memory. Like a distant notion. They would never happen again and our only consolation would be to know that it happened... then. Nothing lasts forever and it's easy to believe that the rain is over and that things would finally start looking up. Sadly, this doesn't really prove rational at times. Keep constant vigilance guys. Don't fall for things that are inconsistent and unsure. You're just making problems for yourself.

Right now, it's still hard for me to get used to the old routine; live my life as it was before. To forget everything that I thought was happening and to will myself to stop all of it. I've only just moved on but unfortunately I have to do it again... To tell you the truth, I'm just so tired of having to pick up the broken pieces. It's like having a vase only for it to crash and break into tiny million pieces. It's so disappointing. I should have known better. I should have trusted my wisdom. Learned from past mistakes. I should have known. Now I'm stuck having to heal myself again. I have no choice.

Maybe it's just me. I'm the problem but don't worry, I never stopped asking myself what I did wrong. I must have crossed a line because here I am again, left in the corner mending something I shouldn't be mending. It's hard to think that I'm getting sad over these things but people still go on in their lives. Oh well, this happens. It's just that I can't get over the fact that the world is being unfair only to me. I'm the only one who's crying, who's broken, who's sad. But I guess... this is just the way it is? I'm just thinking too much. But either way, this caused me to decide about a few things concerning my blog.

People... I'm not closing the blog! Don't get me wrong. I might sound so bleak and austere, but that's just because I'm suffering from... I don't know. I'm just stating that I'm going on temporary leave and I probably wouldn't be updating this blog for a long time. It's already the first quarterly exams this Thursday and as a responsible student, it's my job to polish up my knowledge and start hitting the books. Don't worry I might be back after what, 2 months? I'm not sure. Although up till now (yeah, because I got my stupid self broken just a while ago and so the wound is super fresh and I'm like a walking and typing zombie right now who doesn't give a care to anything at all) I'm like blah and I don't even want to go to details so please forgive me for neglecting this blog.

2 months from now, I don't know what's going to take place or where my moron heart would lead me, but I pray that it'd manage to choose the right decision. Maybe it's not all clear now, but in time it will. And so bye guys. Thanks for reading up!

P.S

Pikachu, I don't know you and we don't talk. As in nothing. I don't know a thing of what you're thinking and hopefully you don't have a clue about what I'm feeling too. Well, I just want to say to you that since I'm on leave from my blog (which I have loved for a long time now and has loyally updated from time to time even if I'm like dead beat), I'm also taking a leave from your life. It's just a little favor I'm doing for myself. You might not see me anymore all the time, and you won't have to witness more of my embarrassing reactions and encounters with you during dismissal. I know I've been a pest and you're probably SO tired of seeing me everyday, it just irritates you so much. Don't worry. I'll leave. I won't bother you anymore. I'm sorry.

Thank you anyway. For being a part of my life. Even if it's short lived.
Thank you for the memories. Even if it's totally unintentional, I'll lay off now.
Have a good life. And cheer up! You can do that! I trust you. And I also know you're capable of doing great things. You're smart, kind and fun to be with. Or so it seems. I just feel as if you're that. Hope I'm not wrong.

Well then...
Bye

I have felt genuine happiness and I'm truly gratefully to God for that. All things end and in the end, no matter how painful it may be, we have to say goodbye to good times, and accept that they will forever just be another part of our memory. Like a distant notion. They would never happen again and our only consolation would be to know that it happened... then. Nothing lasts forever and it's easy to believe that the rain is over and that things would finally start looking up. Sadly, this doesn't really prove rational at times. Keep constant vigilance guys. Don't fall for things that are inconsistent and unsure. You're just making problems for yourself.

Right now, it's still hard for me to get used to the old routine; live my life as it was before. To forget everything that I thought was happening and to will myself to stop all of it. I've only just moved on but unfortunately I have to do it again... To tell you the truth, I'm just so tired of having to pick up the broken pieces. It's like having a vase only for it to crash and break into tiny million pieces. It's so disappointing. I should have known better. I should have trusted my wisdom. Learned from past mistakes. I should have known. Now I'm stuck having to heal myself again. I have no choice.

Maybe it's just me. I'm the problem but don't worry, I never stopped asking myself what I did wrong. I must have crossed a line because here I am again, left in the corner mending something I shouldn't be mending. It's hard to think that I'm getting sad over these things but people still go on in their lives. Oh well, this happens. It's just that I can't get over the fact that the world is being unfair only to me. I'm the only one who's crying, who's broken, who's sad. But I guess... this is just the way it is? I'm just thinking too much. But either way, this caused me to decide about a few things concerning my blog.

People... I'm not closing the blog! Don't get me wrong. I might sound so bleak and austere, but that's just because I'm suffering from... I don't know. I'm just stating that I'm going on temporary leave and I probably wouldn't be updating this blog for a long time. It's already the first quarterly exams this Thursday and as a responsible student, it's my job to polish up my knowledge and start hitting the books. Don't worry I might be back after what, 2 months? I'm not sure. Although up till now (yeah, because I got my stupid self broken just a while ago and so the wound is super fresh and I'm like a walking and typing zombie right now who doesn't give a care to anything at all) I'm like blah and I don't even want to go to details so please forgive me for neglecting this blog.

2 months from now, I don't know what's going to take place or where my moron heart would lead me, but I pray that it'd manage to choose the right decision. Maybe it's not all clear now, but in time it will. And so bye guys. Thanks for reading up!

P.S

Pikachu, I don't know you and we don't talk. As in nothing. I don't know a thing of what you're thinking and hopefully you don't have a clue about what I'm feeling too. Well, I just want to say to you that since I'm on leave from my blog (which I have loved for a long time now and has loyally updated from time to time even if I'm like dead beat), I'm also taking a leave from your life. It's just a little favor I'm doing for myself. You might not see me anymore all the time, and you won't have to witness more of my embarrassing reactions and encounters with you during dismissal. I know I've been a pest and you're probably SO tired of seeing me everyday, it just irritates you so much. Don't worry. I'll leave. I won't bother you anymore. I'm sorry.

Thank you anyway. For being a part of my life. Even if it's short lived.
Thank you for the memories. Even if it's totally unintentional, I'll lay off now.
Have a good life. And cheer up! You can do that! I trust you. And I also know you're capable of doing great things. You're smart, kind and fun to be with. Or so it seems. I just feel as if you're that. Hope I'm not wrong.

Well then...
Bye