Simplicity is Everything
Sunday, June 27, 20109:31 PM
I have come to some conclusions this weekend and they're not really my ordinary day to day revelations in life. You see, I have one question in my mind that I found quite disturbing and it hasn't really helped me sleep for some time now. Why am I not happy? That's the main point. Why do I long for something unfathomable and obviously, out of my reach? Why do I feel empty and my days lacking? What is wrong? It's just now, after much thinking, that I come to the truth and realize this thing (or whatever it is that's bothering me the whole time) for what it is. What's lacking is acceptance. I'm lacking the will to accept what I have and be grateful for all of it.
I constantly harangue for something that won't be mine entirely. I'm hoping and wishing for something that's not me; something I've always wanted but doesn't have the power or to put it honestly, the GUTS to achieve. I'm trying to be something I'm not. I came to the realization that a person would only feel satisfied in life if he or she chooses to live that life as how the person would live it, not how they SHOULD live it. Are you getting my point here? What's the relevance in trying to fit in on a group of people if they're not really what you're up to find? How is it possible to feel pleasure and laugh like there's no tomorrow if the person you're with doesn't really mesh well with you? What if you're not happy with them?
To give a concrete example, imagine you're a girl, a simple one, who has to put up with a shy, introverted personality so fragile that you rarely gather the guts or the willingness to come out of your shell and socialize with people. You're in class with people the same age as you with different personalities and mood swings as you do, but every second you live your life, you don't really feel happy at all, and even if it's been a month or more less a year, you still feel like you don't belong and they're not really your kind of people? It's as if they're not one to understand you. Feel how you feel. Empathize you. Or simply just be with you? Are you gonna put up with it and leave things be? Are you not going to mind it and just wallow on the corner where nobody would notice you (while secretly hoping that they will at some time)?
The thing is, you don't have to be a martyr and carry the weight of the world just because you don't like these persons and you feel as if they don't accept you (more or less as if you're not cool enough or worthy enough to be with them). A person has only one shot at life; one chance to live it. Are you gonna be a wimp and waste every precious second in procrastinating how nobody wants you? Come on, give yourself a break. Your teacher doesn't call you during recitation and it seems to you that she hates you (by that freak look in her face whenever you go under her line of vision), well, so what? You're still the boss of your grades and you can still show her what you've got by acing her subject. Your crush doesn't really notice you (for all he cares) because he's too busy worshiping your goddess of a classmate no matter how much love and attention you're willing to give to him, well, leave him be. He doesn't deserve an inch of you.
Lastly, you're grades aren't too good, you're always left behind by your "friends", they're not there to feel for you when you're on the absolute lowest and to top it all in all, your life sucks. Well, you're not yet dead. Start by checking, in and out... breathe... well, you still can, can't you? You're living dude. The initial fact that you live and can walk about here and there is a blessing already. It's not the end of the world, so why wallow? Things always happens for a reason. As my mom would say to me, or somebody, I forgot who quoted it already so it's a bit messed up, but anyway, "God wouldn't give you anything that you can't pass through. Everything has it's proper solution. Or if there isn't, well, let things be and it'll solve itself." These words are the absolute lessons of life. They're all the equipment you'll ever need to survive high school, college, and pretty much adult life.
I'm just sharing, by the way. You see, I got really inspired and wrote all this after I was able watch the movie "Hariette the Spy: Blog Wars". It made me see the relevance of true friends. No matter how few they may be, as long as you have pals who understands you, and loves you, you won't do for a clique or a "barkada" anymore. They'll be everything you'll have and will need. As for love, and the so called "Mr. Right", well, he comes, only a little late, but everybody says so that he will come at the right time and at the right place. For now, I still don't expect him to come, so chill and let's live life to the fullest. Being single is still a blessing. As for our personality problems and if ever we have any self doubts, just relax and sit back. Nothing beats being simple and acting like ourselves. It's always good to be natural and love ourselves for who we are, and not hate ourselves for who we're not. Every person is blessed with something that would make us unique from others.
Love yourself guys. Be thankful. And mostly, and most importantly, SIMPLE IS BEAUTIFUL.
LOVELOTZ,
Blessie
P.S
I'm still freaking out since I still haven't written any article for the Aquinian. I'm in big trouble. Gotta rush now.
I constantly harangue for something that won't be mine entirely. I'm hoping and wishing for something that's not me; something I've always wanted but doesn't have the power or to put it honestly, the GUTS to achieve. I'm trying to be something I'm not. I came to the realization that a person would only feel satisfied in life if he or she chooses to live that life as how the person would live it, not how they SHOULD live it. Are you getting my point here? What's the relevance in trying to fit in on a group of people if they're not really what you're up to find? How is it possible to feel pleasure and laugh like there's no tomorrow if the person you're with doesn't really mesh well with you? What if you're not happy with them?
To give a concrete example, imagine you're a girl, a simple one, who has to put up with a shy, introverted personality so fragile that you rarely gather the guts or the willingness to come out of your shell and socialize with people. You're in class with people the same age as you with different personalities and mood swings as you do, but every second you live your life, you don't really feel happy at all, and even if it's been a month or more less a year, you still feel like you don't belong and they're not really your kind of people? It's as if they're not one to understand you. Feel how you feel. Empathize you. Or simply just be with you? Are you gonna put up with it and leave things be? Are you not going to mind it and just wallow on the corner where nobody would notice you (while secretly hoping that they will at some time)?
The thing is, you don't have to be a martyr and carry the weight of the world just because you don't like these persons and you feel as if they don't accept you (more or less as if you're not cool enough or worthy enough to be with them). A person has only one shot at life; one chance to live it. Are you gonna be a wimp and waste every precious second in procrastinating how nobody wants you? Come on, give yourself a break. Your teacher doesn't call you during recitation and it seems to you that she hates you (by that freak look in her face whenever you go under her line of vision), well, so what? You're still the boss of your grades and you can still show her what you've got by acing her subject. Your crush doesn't really notice you (for all he cares) because he's too busy worshiping your goddess of a classmate no matter how much love and attention you're willing to give to him, well, leave him be. He doesn't deserve an inch of you.
Lastly, you're grades aren't too good, you're always left behind by your "friends", they're not there to feel for you when you're on the absolute lowest and to top it all in all, your life sucks. Well, you're not yet dead. Start by checking, in and out... breathe... well, you still can, can't you? You're living dude. The initial fact that you live and can walk about here and there is a blessing already. It's not the end of the world, so why wallow? Things always happens for a reason. As my mom would say to me, or somebody, I forgot who quoted it already so it's a bit messed up, but anyway, "God wouldn't give you anything that you can't pass through. Everything has it's proper solution. Or if there isn't, well, let things be and it'll solve itself." These words are the absolute lessons of life. They're all the equipment you'll ever need to survive high school, college, and pretty much adult life.
I'm just sharing, by the way. You see, I got really inspired and wrote all this after I was able watch the movie "Hariette the Spy: Blog Wars". It made me see the relevance of true friends. No matter how few they may be, as long as you have pals who understands you, and loves you, you won't do for a clique or a "barkada" anymore. They'll be everything you'll have and will need. As for love, and the so called "Mr. Right", well, he comes, only a little late, but everybody says so that he will come at the right time and at the right place. For now, I still don't expect him to come, so chill and let's live life to the fullest. Being single is still a blessing. As for our personality problems and if ever we have any self doubts, just relax and sit back. Nothing beats being simple and acting like ourselves. It's always good to be natural and love ourselves for who we are, and not hate ourselves for who we're not. Every person is blessed with something that would make us unique from others.
Love yourself guys. Be thankful. And mostly, and most importantly, SIMPLE IS BEAUTIFUL.
LOVELOTZ,
Blessie
P.S
I'm still freaking out since I still haven't written any article for the Aquinian. I'm in big trouble. Gotta rush now.
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