My life is so great!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Life's a bitch, but hey, I'm living it so why is it such a waste? What's with the negative outlook? I should be telling that to myself but I feel like I don't need it. No more self pity and there are far more better things in my life to feel sad over. Yeah, dreadful things are looming and I don't have any idea how I'll be facing them but I believe things have their due course and if you just follow what your heart and faith on this, you'll come out unscathed. So I'm penning on my heart and faith. Lord you've got me, don't you? 

What's with free fall? It's when you feel like you're falling but there's still that elated feeling within you. You when you feel like the world is transpiring against you and you've accidentally also been feeling shit lately, but then you just think SCREW YOU PEOPLE! because you don't really want get hurt anymore but it doesn't erase the fact that you do care. It's painful to think that you can't do anything (yeah, helplessness) but as we've (my classmates and I)been Tuesdays with Morrie maniacs nowadays, and we can't seem to stop quoting bits from the novel, I'm starting to adapt a certain aphorism parallel to my own situation. That one about "When you learn how to die, you learn how to live." 

What I mean is, the more that I hurt, the happier I am when good things come in my life because I no longer see these blessings as minor things in my life but I get to think that they're shards of a big mass of saving grace sent for me. I do think that it's better to suffer than to feel happy at the expense of others. People will always be what they are and no matter what moral norms there is, they won't adhere to those anyhow. 

So this is gonna be my last message. To that guy, I don't yet your purpose and why, but I do know you're the one that I've been waiting for because it shouldn't have to hurt like this. To that girl, maybe it just isn't going to work. Things can't be the way you want it to and I'd be lying if I say that I don't care and that I'm fine with it because I'm not. I don't feel so comfortable about the connection. Maybe give me some time to move over that fact? To forget all about it? Because no matter how I pretend that it's fine by me, well it's not. It's hurting me more and I can't very well be truly your friend when I feel heavy and sad around you, isn't it? Maybe in time, I'd come to forget about it.

To Princess, you were the one who phrased it right. True friends do that. And I'm glad I have one like you. The roller coaster okay? You're to sit next to me and then let's abuse all the people that's done us wrong. It's all right to let out steam some time. It's healthy. :) Best, as always, ever physically present and mentally as well. Maybe except the heart because it currently belongs to someone with the initials JBM. So that's practically it. I succumb to my emotions. Do what you want people, if you want, you can even seduce each other in front of me; I'll bleed but I'll heal too. No problemo. The more that you step over me, the more firm I get. Anyway, you'll also get your karma. As for me, I just don't want to pretend anymore. COPYWRITING!!!! COMPETTION TOMORROW. 

I should really be studying the symbols now. Gotta rush! :)

My life is so great!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Life's a bitch, but hey, I'm living it so why is it such a waste? What's with the negative outlook? I should be telling that to myself but I feel like I don't need it. No more self pity and there are far more better things in my life to feel sad over. Yeah, dreadful things are looming and I don't have any idea how I'll be facing them but I believe things have their due course and if you just follow what your heart and faith on this, you'll come out unscathed. So I'm penning on my heart and faith. Lord you've got me, don't you? 

What's with free fall? It's when you feel like you're falling but there's still that elated feeling within you. You when you feel like the world is transpiring against you and you've accidentally also been feeling shit lately, but then you just think SCREW YOU PEOPLE! because you don't really want get hurt anymore but it doesn't erase the fact that you do care. It's painful to think that you can't do anything (yeah, helplessness) but as we've (my classmates and I)been Tuesdays with Morrie maniacs nowadays, and we can't seem to stop quoting bits from the novel, I'm starting to adapt a certain aphorism parallel to my own situation. That one about "When you learn how to die, you learn how to live." 

What I mean is, the more that I hurt, the happier I am when good things come in my life because I no longer see these blessings as minor things in my life but I get to think that they're shards of a big mass of saving grace sent for me. I do think that it's better to suffer than to feel happy at the expense of others. People will always be what they are and no matter what moral norms there is, they won't adhere to those anyhow. 

So this is gonna be my last message. To that guy, I don't yet your purpose and why, but I do know you're the one that I've been waiting for because it shouldn't have to hurt like this. To that girl, maybe it just isn't going to work. Things can't be the way you want it to and I'd be lying if I say that I don't care and that I'm fine with it because I'm not. I don't feel so comfortable about the connection. Maybe give me some time to move over that fact? To forget all about it? Because no matter how I pretend that it's fine by me, well it's not. It's hurting me more and I can't very well be truly your friend when I feel heavy and sad around you, isn't it? Maybe in time, I'd come to forget about it.

To Princess, you were the one who phrased it right. True friends do that. And I'm glad I have one like you. The roller coaster okay? You're to sit next to me and then let's abuse all the people that's done us wrong. It's all right to let out steam some time. It's healthy. :) Best, as always, ever physically present and mentally as well. Maybe except the heart because it currently belongs to someone with the initials JBM. So that's practically it. I succumb to my emotions. Do what you want people, if you want, you can even seduce each other in front of me; I'll bleed but I'll heal too. No problemo. The more that you step over me, the more firm I get. Anyway, you'll also get your karma. As for me, I just don't want to pretend anymore. COPYWRITING!!!! COMPETTION TOMORROW. 

I should really be studying the symbols now. Gotta rush! :)