I'm not really up to typing a whole span of words right now because ONE, I didn't sleep in the afternoon so naturally, I won't be able to withstand the night and I'd have to turn in early. TWO, I'm simply not in my literary element right now. I'm just going to summarize everything I've felt within this week, now that it comes to an end. And as ever, I'm forever grateful to God for being with me through this stressing, self confidence lessening, painful, depressing, but enlightening week. So here goes. 

PRICE TAG. 

Finally, my mom and dad agreed to something big that I've been pining for for the rest of my life. Which is my own room. Oh my. That sounds too good to be true. My own room. My own PRIVATE room. I love how the words roll on my mouth. And what's more, they're consenting to my request to renovate it as I want it. Only one thing to do. Room Layout Hunting on Tumblr!

TOMORROW

The thing about Meryll. I like him, but I can't talk to him. He doesn't know me in the sense that we don't interact at all. Plus, I'm down to one year of high school already. I'm going to graduate soon and doesn't really give me much time to make my presence known to him. Since I'm already used to the act of liking someone from a distance and a bunch of cases of unrequited love, I might as well continue being invisible. And oh yeah, I just found out we have the same birth month! That makes him a Scorpio too. Too bad that doesn't really indicate that we have the slightest chance.

NEW PERSPECTIVE

I eat my words. TO MY AQUINIAN FAMILY, I'm very sorry. I'm apologizing because I know I abandoned the club, and I hated it and everyone in it at some point. I lost my passion when I was in the club and without any second thoughts, I left it. I wanted quits with it. And yet here I am, returning to where I started. I admit I've been ambitious and I made a mistake. But what really got to me was the fact that the club's adviser, my fellow members, and even the reasons that made me leave the club welcomed me without any hesitation. What immediately came to my mind was the story of the Prodigal Son. I don't know if they were sincere or they were just embarrassed to kick me out, I don't have any idea, but it was like I never left. Though it was a bit awkward at first, that bit's true. 

SOMEBODY TO LOVE

 This is for all the unknown entities that are part of the mixed feelings and memories I've been having these past few days. It can all be nostalgia you know. Whenever I hear this song, I find myself going back to the time when Edrick Serrano became my crush and I was oh so full of energy and hope that all my heartaches would finally be compensated one way or another. You know, why during the time that I liked him, everything felt so magical and interesting and him and their group seemed like the sunshine I most needed needed? Liking him made me feel like I had something to look forward to. Even if that thing with didn't work out, and nothing really ever came out of it, except for a month or maybe a few weeks of infatuation, it's still surprising how I view that part of my life not as a failure or a painful experience, but one of those things that you just remember once in a while and can't help smiling at. 

Aw. My mom is honking the horn already. I'll just continue tomorrow. Ahhh.... I miss blogging. Feels marvelous to be here. More to tell, so little time. Oh well, in the next 12 hours for sure.

I'm not really up to typing a whole span of words right now because ONE, I didn't sleep in the afternoon so naturally, I won't be able to withstand the night and I'd have to turn in early. TWO, I'm simply not in my literary element right now. I'm just going to summarize everything I've felt within this week, now that it comes to an end. And as ever, I'm forever grateful to God for being with me through this stressing, self confidence lessening, painful, depressing, but enlightening week. So here goes. 

PRICE TAG. 

Finally, my mom and dad agreed to something big that I've been pining for for the rest of my life. Which is my own room. Oh my. That sounds too good to be true. My own room. My own PRIVATE room. I love how the words roll on my mouth. And what's more, they're consenting to my request to renovate it as I want it. Only one thing to do. Room Layout Hunting on Tumblr!

TOMORROW

The thing about Meryll. I like him, but I can't talk to him. He doesn't know me in the sense that we don't interact at all. Plus, I'm down to one year of high school already. I'm going to graduate soon and doesn't really give me much time to make my presence known to him. Since I'm already used to the act of liking someone from a distance and a bunch of cases of unrequited love, I might as well continue being invisible. And oh yeah, I just found out we have the same birth month! That makes him a Scorpio too. Too bad that doesn't really indicate that we have the slightest chance.

NEW PERSPECTIVE

I eat my words. TO MY AQUINIAN FAMILY, I'm very sorry. I'm apologizing because I know I abandoned the club, and I hated it and everyone in it at some point. I lost my passion when I was in the club and without any second thoughts, I left it. I wanted quits with it. And yet here I am, returning to where I started. I admit I've been ambitious and I made a mistake. But what really got to me was the fact that the club's adviser, my fellow members, and even the reasons that made me leave the club welcomed me without any hesitation. What immediately came to my mind was the story of the Prodigal Son. I don't know if they were sincere or they were just embarrassed to kick me out, I don't have any idea, but it was like I never left. Though it was a bit awkward at first, that bit's true. 

SOMEBODY TO LOVE

 This is for all the unknown entities that are part of the mixed feelings and memories I've been having these past few days. It can all be nostalgia you know. Whenever I hear this song, I find myself going back to the time when Edrick Serrano became my crush and I was oh so full of energy and hope that all my heartaches would finally be compensated one way or another. You know, why during the time that I liked him, everything felt so magical and interesting and him and their group seemed like the sunshine I most needed needed? Liking him made me feel like I had something to look forward to. Even if that thing with didn't work out, and nothing really ever came out of it, except for a month or maybe a few weeks of infatuation, it's still surprising how I view that part of my life not as a failure or a painful experience, but one of those things that you just remember once in a while and can't help smiling at. 

Aw. My mom is honking the horn already. I'll just continue tomorrow. Ahhh.... I miss blogging. Feels marvelous to be here. More to tell, so little time. Oh well, in the next 12 hours for sure.