I'm okay, I'm okay. Aishh... no I'm not. Now that I've finished it, and I knew the ending and I'm sitting here in front of the monitor and typing this up while listening to Crazy in Love by Jisun (the best OST in the drama) I'm like blah deep inside. I knew this would happen to me anyway, I tend to get this drama addiction syndrome after finishing a drama I really really like. When I'm still watching the drama, I get this feeling that makes me leave everything. Like, I'm not myself anymore and I'm actually living the life the characters have in the drama. I usually neglect myself during these stages; not caring at all if I eat less (because I eat fast so I can immediately go back to watching especially since my dad is a bit strict in eating dinner or lunch) or I rested.

And then I also start acting like the Korean actress in real life. Like, I'm overeacting something and I also adapt their way of speaking, usually answering 'ye' when my mom asks me something instead of saying yes. And then I start checking my phone on the Seoul time in the World Clock application. After I'm finished watching, I go blank. Then comes all the problems in this syndrome thingy. I start getting sad for no reason. You might thinking I'm crazy but I do. I get this faraway look and I'm just... I don't know, lost? I start thinking about the kilig events, and then I feel this irritating sinking feeling in my heart. Maybe because my life is not like the drama's? And worst yet, I cry also. (Just when I totally feel hopeless and I feel like I can't get enough of the drama. Wooh, addicted much.)

And then... I also go internet stalking. HAHAHA. That's the most fun part. I get so addicted that I'm even stalking the Korean actors and actresses. (Mostly the male leads.) But then, I also get so sad when I come upon dating topics and ideal girl talk on some forums. I mean, when you watch a drama that takes you at least 2-3 days to finish, don't you just get attached to the actors? You feel like you know them personally and yet, you also know that they're not at all what they are in the drama? They live totally different lives. Wouldn't you want to ship the couple in the drama? Partly, that's one of the reasons I get sad once I finish watching a Korean drama. Because in Korea, they don't repeat love teams in dramas no matter how some people totally love the pair up. (I love everything about Korea, especially when I'm obssessing over their nationals, but I hate that part of it.)

Hmm... what stage am I now? I have no idea... Maybe, I'm not too far gone. Hah. Who am I kidding. Sooner or later, I'm going to feel the weight of it. When I'm alone, I'm probably going to think of it and go melancholy about it. Start acting like an emo and stare at the window with that pained, far away look in my eyes. That sucks. Only drama actresses do that. It's not like I have some major problems like scheming step moms and missing brothers. Nor do I have a converted rich grandson caring for me. Gosh. How I wish I could live a drama worthy life someday. I want a love story like that. Hmm... wonder if it would come true? Haha.

PS

Yay! I'm going to start a 30 day Kdrama challenge! LOOL. Ya. I just realized that's like, one month. One month of posting favorites. Hope I'm not prejudiced. Original posts will be in Tumblr, but I'll put the same posts here too. :) Kekeke. I'm so happy.

I'm okay, I'm okay. Aishh... no I'm not. Now that I've finished it, and I knew the ending and I'm sitting here in front of the monitor and typing this up while listening to Crazy in Love by Jisun (the best OST in the drama) I'm like blah deep inside. I knew this would happen to me anyway, I tend to get this drama addiction syndrome after finishing a drama I really really like. When I'm still watching the drama, I get this feeling that makes me leave everything. Like, I'm not myself anymore and I'm actually living the life the characters have in the drama. I usually neglect myself during these stages; not caring at all if I eat less (because I eat fast so I can immediately go back to watching especially since my dad is a bit strict in eating dinner or lunch) or I rested.

And then I also start acting like the Korean actress in real life. Like, I'm overeacting something and I also adapt their way of speaking, usually answering 'ye' when my mom asks me something instead of saying yes. And then I start checking my phone on the Seoul time in the World Clock application. After I'm finished watching, I go blank. Then comes all the problems in this syndrome thingy. I start getting sad for no reason. You might thinking I'm crazy but I do. I get this faraway look and I'm just... I don't know, lost? I start thinking about the kilig events, and then I feel this irritating sinking feeling in my heart. Maybe because my life is not like the drama's? And worst yet, I cry also. (Just when I totally feel hopeless and I feel like I can't get enough of the drama. Wooh, addicted much.)

And then... I also go internet stalking. HAHAHA. That's the most fun part. I get so addicted that I'm even stalking the Korean actors and actresses. (Mostly the male leads.) But then, I also get so sad when I come upon dating topics and ideal girl talk on some forums. I mean, when you watch a drama that takes you at least 2-3 days to finish, don't you just get attached to the actors? You feel like you know them personally and yet, you also know that they're not at all what they are in the drama? They live totally different lives. Wouldn't you want to ship the couple in the drama? Partly, that's one of the reasons I get sad once I finish watching a Korean drama. Because in Korea, they don't repeat love teams in dramas no matter how some people totally love the pair up. (I love everything about Korea, especially when I'm obssessing over their nationals, but I hate that part of it.)

Hmm... what stage am I now? I have no idea... Maybe, I'm not too far gone. Hah. Who am I kidding. Sooner or later, I'm going to feel the weight of it. When I'm alone, I'm probably going to think of it and go melancholy about it. Start acting like an emo and stare at the window with that pained, far away look in my eyes. That sucks. Only drama actresses do that. It's not like I have some major problems like scheming step moms and missing brothers. Nor do I have a converted rich grandson caring for me. Gosh. How I wish I could live a drama worthy life someday. I want a love story like that. Hmm... wonder if it would come true? Haha.

PS

Yay! I'm going to start a 30 day Kdrama challenge! LOOL. Ya. I just realized that's like, one month. One month of posting favorites. Hope I'm not prejudiced. Original posts will be in Tumblr, but I'll put the same posts here too. :) Kekeke. I'm so happy.